futura

it's dirty. it's beautiful. contradictions? not in new york.

i'm beginning to have mini panic attacks that i won't become all i want to be. i mean, i want to be a model and something about it just isn't working out. i'm submitting pictures left and right and getting rejected up and down. why? is it because my pictures are awful? i don't want to be so conceited, but i always thought i could make it as a model. maybe it's my height. or maybe i'll take it back to not having good enough pictures. whatever, i'll go to a casting call one of these days. before braces? unlikely.

i hope i become all i want to be. or i just won't be happy.

1. UPenn

2. Dartmouth

3. Cornell

those are my top three choices. except, the most obvious fault is that they're all ivies. i have such high hopes for myself, it's almost embarrassing.

i would list all the schools i'm APPLYING to, but that would take up way too much space. it's expensive and expansive.

is wordpress better than blogspot? i don't know.