concubine

i am sick and tired of people defending this girl and saying she's "just being sixteen". excuse me, but not every sixteen year old played a character on disney channel whose tv show was aimed at children. she's supposed to be serving as a role model, and i don't care if she's trying to stray away from her hannah montana image. until you're off disney's contract, you are still and will forever be hannah montana. for someone who is so publicized, someone who little girls delusionally idolize, she has no respect for herself. she needs to remember who her audience is.

besides that.

• writing college essays is hard. there's too many and i'm getting a little lazy. good for me, i wrote two components for my ED UPenn app today, though.
• i want to start reviewing books. let's start with secret society by tom dolby. i don't have it in my hands right now, but considering harperteen has at least 70 pages of it up on their website, i think i can make the assumption that it's a basic rip-off of blue bloods by melissa de la cruz. i say this because i read blue bloods religiously, and i can't help but follow dolby's plot and find blatant similarities to de la cruz's. i mean, sure, the upper east side privileged teens setting is very common, but a secret society where you are secretly tapped based on your social class and background? a murder within the society? unlikely characters who will inevitably mesh and fall in love? it's all too familiar. i also took a peek at hush, hush. what i would do to get some ARCs for those.
• the beautiful life, which i have always considered an uncanny resemblance to my novel draft, got canceled. meaning, i can still write my story if i plan to. yes!
• i can't take the acts/sats in time for ED. i'm unhappy.
• peacoat getting ordered this weekend. too excited.

god, what i would do to be in college right now.

fshn / fall 09

people just don't understand art.

gaultier looked gorgeous on her.

versace is too much for you, blake.

i know it's the emmys but i think a marchesa or a miu miu, or even armani, might have suited her better.

versace is especially overestimated with that ... hairstyle.

dramatics are good, but i think i'm the only one who's not feeling siriano.

maybe i'm too accustomed to the classics to let in a reality show winner.

look at me. i can't even hide my bias.

los angeles

i love rachel zoe beyond words. i don't understand some people who've whined about her antics or even her weight, which is not only beyond irrelevant to her career but not worth investigating, you can't deny that she's done some pretty gorgeous work. i loved what she did for anne hathaway at the oscars last year.

the detail on that dress is breathtaking.

i'm also a little jealous that rachel's got enough hair confidence to work a centerpart. i wouldn't dare.

if i ever considered los angeles as a home, i'd die to work for that woman. but until she touches base in new york, there's nothing i can do but watch RZP and seethe with envy.

• common app fill-out today. i need to get moving, and also press the idea of ED UPenn to my parents.
• i need to start an operation smile club at school. i keep forgetting.
• i also need to watch RZP and Jennifer's Body online. i keep forgetting that too.

i can't wait until i turn 18. i can't wait for college. i can't wait for life.

futura

it's dirty. it's beautiful. contradictions? not in new york.

i'm beginning to have mini panic attacks that i won't become all i want to be. i mean, i want to be a model and something about it just isn't working out. i'm submitting pictures left and right and getting rejected up and down. why? is it because my pictures are awful? i don't want to be so conceited, but i always thought i could make it as a model. maybe it's my height. or maybe i'll take it back to not having good enough pictures. whatever, i'll go to a casting call one of these days. before braces? unlikely.

i hope i become all i want to be. or i just won't be happy.

1. UPenn

2. Dartmouth

3. Cornell

those are my top three choices. except, the most obvious fault is that they're all ivies. i have such high hopes for myself, it's almost embarrassing.

i would list all the schools i'm APPLYING to, but that would take up way too much space. it's expensive and expansive.

is wordpress better than blogspot? i don't know.

je veux te voir

just got this in my inbox from shopbop. i think i'd be better off doing the second look. i hate denim skirts, but i hate light denim even more.

i want to start doing pimsleur again so i can learn french fluently. and be able to understand je veux te voir by yelle without a translator. the disco d remix is the best.

i'm beginning to think i don't have model looks. that's depressing.

i came across an article about kira plastinina. i have no respect for a fashion line that was funded and entirely paid for by her millionaire father. i think the rest of america feels the same, considering she filed for chapter 7 protection, since her line was beyond failure over here. youngest fashion designer in the world? whatever. there's plenty of other young designers more deserving of that title.

i bought a planner last night. hopefully i have enough of a hectic schedule this year to fill it.