panique

i really hate panic attacks, so people the world loves/likes/talks about need to stop dying.

anyway, i want a fun life. but that means i need to model. meaning, i need to get this career started asap. the sad part is i'm unsure of what kind of braces i'll be getting. but if my mother wants to be extremely cheap, and she usually is, she will force me to get metal braces and that would be a bitchy move on her part considering ceramics are only about $300 more.

i want a fun life. i want to model. i want to live in the city later on in life. actually, i want to live there now, but the logical part of me knows that isn't ... logical even in college. i need a successful life first. i need to have jourdan dunn's life.

i'm getting off track here.

i love ghesquiere but jennifer connelly ... why. i don't blame the photographer, i don't even blame marketing. i blame her for making this pose and thinking it was flattering.

i'll love balenciaga forever and ever, though.

my hair is gorgeous but the itch is killing me.

orejas

i love techno. i love electro-pop. i love dance. i'm really happy with my music taste right now.

statutory

i'm obsessed with fashion. it's actually a bit sad. i'm thinking of turning this blog into not just a personal blog, but also a nyc/style centric blog. in fact, i will.

anyway. a couple things have been on my mind lately.

• i really want to be a model. however, i'm getting braces on september 9th, and ford casting calls are on wednesdays. and what day is september 9th? a wednesday. i'd love to go to a casting before i get braces on, but i doubt that will happen. i'm not actually getting braces on the 9th, but spacers. i heard they're very painful.
  
• what's the deal with people having to be 18 for everything? i've come to a conclusion that 17 is really the worst year. all you're doing is anticipating being legal. i'd love to be 18. then i could go after any celebrity i want. hopefully.
• i really want to see "the september issue". since working in magazines is my backup for if i don't become stellar famous as a model, i want to see how it works. however, i read a review on the new york times that the movie isn't really based on how the business works but rather how anna wintour works. even though i love anna wintour, i have to admit that british, italian, french, and vogue nippon are all better than american vogue. i'll have to edit this sometime later if i really intend to write for magazines.

i wish i would stop getting headaches.

vacaciones

wow, i haven't updated this in months. time to get back to posting.

i'm in maryland and it's starting to suck. every time i come here i feel like i never get to eat. honestly, is it so hard to keep the refrigerator stocked? i may weigh around a hundred and ten pounds but i eat about seven times a day. people need to keep up.

i'm really only excited about:
a. getting my hair done
b. getting money from my dad's birthday party

honestly, that's it, and i'm ready to go home. and hopefully go back to memorial.

and my god, i want to be on a plane right now.